back to regular programming

enough. i've had enough. enough of this adolescent drivel. enough of this waiting and hoping and wanting and yearning and looking. it's not there. it never was.

i've had it.

you may say ...

... that it's so easy to laugh with me
... that we understand each other so well we can almost read each other's minds
... that what we have is comfortable and right
... that our children will have my art and your sight
... that we have the rest of our lives to go on road trips together
... that there is no need to tiptoe because we already fit perfectly
... that there is an "us"

but you know what?

no thanks. this is a risk i took and no way on earth will it work.
i've had it. i've had enough. better to cut out while i am still whole.

please make sure your pipes are in better working order this time.
and don't ever watch me with the wind again. ever.

no more drama in this life.
back to regular programming.